Survivor Speaks – Laura Landgraf

If you’d like to reach out to Laura, her website is: http://lauralandgraf.com

The Madness Stops Here

There is a saying, “The madness stops here.” You’ll hear me say that often. The madness Landgraf0368-emailstops here. It means that my background is not my children’s. It means, for my son and daughter, incest stopped at my generation.

The tangled web we humans weave has emotional tentacles far more entwined than an octopus. The statistics on child sexual abuse are overwhelming. 1 in 3 girls molested by age 18. 1 in 5 boys. The median age for molestation is 11 – 13.  85% of molesters are family members. How are we going to address this with any degree of success? What can one person do?

The madness stops here. I prevented my two children from experiencing sexual abuse. They will protect their children. Imagine the ripple effect when a woman, or man, understands they are not isolated by experience. They can name it, stand straight and tall about it, and grow this human shield we need to form, to surround our children.

There’s a wonderful “sound bite” in an otherwise difficult story of reporter Lara Logan’s sexual and physical assault by a mob in Cairo. She was sure she was going to die. And then one woman put her arms around Lara, and silently, burka clothed women formed a barrier between her and the mob. “It was about their women and that was what saved me, I think…the women kind of closed ranks around me.” That’s what we need to do for our children. Close ranks around them, and save them from abuse.

Our culture still harbors a taboo about child sexual abuse. Those of us who were harmed by abuse belong to a secret society held hostage by shame so profound we can’t utter a word of our experience. People avert their eyes when incest is mentioned – in the 21st Century! Astonishing. And yet, that was me. I chose not to speak of it even after I did the work of healing, for over 30 years.

I didn’t want to be defined by my childhood. More, I didn’t want my children to experience any more “splash-over” toxicity from the legal process of protecting them from my abuser. It was ugly.

Abusers are masterful manipulators. They don’t play fair. Not with their victims, and not when about to be exposed. The fury they unleashed on me was stunning in its velocity, scope and their willingness to destroy. You have to be single minded, laser focused, and develop a will of steel, to be the one who says on behalf of his or her child…The Madness Stops Here.

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