Imaginary Fear

I wrote this poem about imaginary fear. Dealing with panic attacks, anxiety, and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) caused by the trauma of childhood sexual abuse created  imaginary fears in my mind that would sometimes stop me in my tracks.

I am now writing poems to go with positive sayings I developed on my journey of healing. I took my sayings and some of my personal photographs and developed t-shirts that will be sold to raise money to help others heal from childhood sexual abuse.

Here is my poem.

Imaginary Fear

I had no idea of the power of imaginary fear.

As I have gone through this journey of healing, the power of imaginary fear has been so revealing.

The power of fear can be so paralyzingly; I spent too much time over-analyzing.

I never would have dreamed the damage done to one’s self esteem.

When you have been damaged and hurt as a child, you can let imaginary fear consume you for more than just a little while.

I reached a point when I decided to heal. I would fight imaginary fear with unstoppable zeal.

It took a lot of years – and my share of tears. But I was determined not to be stopped by my imaginary fears.

I have no idea where my life will go. But with God as my Partner, I will tell imaginary fear,

“You will not hold me back anymore.”

By C. David Moody, Jr.

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